You know that feeling before you do something out of your comfort zone, and you know everything will change. Well maybe not everything, but at the time it feels like everything. This is what I imagine it’s like to launch a rocket.
And that’s what starting a blog feels like.
This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It’s the most terrifying thing, and the thing that has the most potential of failure. Writing a blog – putting my thoughts and words down for people to read on the internet, terrifies me!
You know that dream you have as a kid, of getting to school in your pyjamas (for me this wouldn’t be that bad because I love my llama pjs), or even worse with no clothes at all? That’s how I feel. Exposed and uncomfortable!
I never set out to write a blog. English wasn’t my favourite subject, in fact it was my weakest subject. And as a result I’ve had so many doubts about launching this ‘rocket’. Like, Amber who’s going to read it anyways, who are you to give them advice or information, and you’re not even that good at English.
I was reminded recently of a time on a short term trip to central Australia where I literally broke down at the breakfast table over my bowl of cereal, because I felt inadequate and weak. As I poured out my heart to my dear friend, who’s like a mother to me, about my fears of not being good enough to be a missionary, or clever enough because I couldn’t do something as simple as learn a few key phrases in their language. She took me aside and gave me some scriptures that have stayed so close ever since.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).
“But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.” (2 Corinthians 4:7).
And that’s exactly how I feel as I sit here and write this, weak, and unimpressive and like a clay jar. Yet God is reminding me that it’s not about me at all, but about Him!
All I’m required to do is to be obedient to His calling for my life. And man does obedience take faith!
In the same way that I need faith, it took faith for Abram to leave his home town for the unknown. It took faith for all the prophets to speak the message God has given them. And now it is taking faith to launch this site, even when it might mean I fail and crash and burn.
I wonder what the Lord is asking of you today, you don’t have to be perfect at it. And you don’t have to have your life together, trust me – I don’t! But He asks for your faith and obedience.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9).
Thank you so much for joining me on this journey!